taking flight into art, love, and life (the blog)

Monday, August 30, 2010

studio unpacking in progress. yikes!

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(really bad iphone photo of a corner of the studio being unpacked)

i am working really hard at trying to get my studio unpacked. it's been such a process - lord have mercy. i'm realizing two things. one: i really want my space to be pretty like my old studio. two: but i really want everything (ephemera, paints, etc) to be out and visible when i'm painting rather than stored away, like how i was creating in the dining room up in seattle. so, i'm trying to bridge the two ideas and get everything out and visible and easily accessible (in a pretty small space) while also making it lovely. it's a challenge and it's a total mess right now! but i'm determined :)

also working on getting my office set up (really looking forward to that!) in a totally separate area as well as the shop inventory/shipping area also in a separate area. lots of biz spaces in our home, but really wanting to keep it close until i know how it's all going to work out with baby at home/working from home.

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Sunday, August 29, 2010

Sponsor Spotlights: Beth Quinn, Alessandra Cave, + Susannah Conway


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Susannah Conway is a photographer, writer and the creator of the Unravelling e-course, an 8-week online class designed to help you heal the way you see your self and your world, using photography and journalling to access hidden thoughts & dreams and encourage personal realisations, all in the safe space of a like-minded community. Susannah spent many years as a journalist working in London before her entire world shattered with the sudden death of her partner in 2005. She returned to the south coast of England to heal in solitude, and over the years has rediscovered her true calling though her passion for photography and writing. Susannah now shares her wisdom with people around the world via her blog - SusannahConway.com - and her Unravelling e-courses. She is currently writing her first book, to be published in autumn 2011.

Registration for the autumn Unravelling: Ways of Seeing My Self class has now sold out, but if you'd like to join the winter class be sure to sign up to the mailing list for updates on the courses, book and future workshops, and come say hi at the blog!



Friday, August 27, 2010

on pregnancy panic and reclaiming energized hope

i'm 35 weeks today. my oh my. people tell me that it's all in the belly, but it feels like it's everywhere. i am still wearing my regular dresses and target maternity jeans underneath. thank god for jersey dresses from boden. and thank god for my being able to stay incredibly, weirdly active with just the occasional energy slump here and there. ps - notice the iphone cover! i've got lots of designs in the iphone/ipad/laptop department coming soon to the online shop which will re-open in the next week or so. folks who have signed up for the newsletter will be the first to know when the shop re-opens so be sure to sign up! i will have limited quantities of 2011 calendars and datebooks available as well as some other brand new items too!

blogged at www.kellyraeroberts.blogspot.com

earlier this week i had the quintessential pregnancy freak out. on the verge of panic in the middle of the nite, i had all those scary thoughts: we're not ready. what have we done! i'm not sure i can do this. i'm not sure i want to do this. there's no turning back. how can i turn back?

it was a kind of panic where you slip out of yourself for few moments into the deepest pockets of your fears, a place where you don't recognize your current self, a place where you feel almost newborn and raw in a foreign landscape of mind trickery. the whole thing left me feeling wildly undone and terrified inside a space of a few very long minutes. i didn't like it. at all. john so sweetly calmed me down, gently rubbed my arm, and talked me off the ledge. i drifted off to sleep, and woke up the next morning a bit exhausted.

throughout my pregnancy journey, my friends have been telling me their pregnancy and motherhood stories, their moments of overwhelm, their moments of courage, and their moments of grace and love. i think it's been crucial for me to hear the truths of these stories - to know that my moments of panic are par for the course, that this is a life changer. and that life changers come with the wide spectrum of human emotion no matter what that event may be (pregnancy, moving, retiring, empty nesting, grief, and on and on). more than ever, i'm feeling deeply alive and aware of the wide expansion of life and birth and rebirth and change and evolution, not just in my own life, but in living itself. what a remarkable existence.

back to my panic. for me, i've deeply missed two things these last several months while in transition: studio/creative time and running my creative biz - both have been on hold essentially since february when i got super sick during the first trimester, then again while we've had everything in storage since march, while we lived in temporary housing, while we renovated the house, while i ran the ecourse, while i launched the ebooks. now that we're in the house and unpacking i'm realizing that i'm running out of time to tend to those two passions before having a baby. and my heart sort of sinks at the idea of putting these two passions on hold again during maternity leave - i get incredibly anxious and restless at the thought of it even though i know i likely won't care once baby arrives. i think that's where the panic came in - that feeling of running out of time, that wanting to reach back into my passion before it has to be put on hold again.

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but then something shifted. while unpacking my studio space a couple of days ago, i had this very clear moment of clarity: that there is no end, or beginning, or permanence, or putting things on perpetual hold. that nothing is going to die, but that birth will take place all over our lives, that i can still have a baby and run my creative biz, that i can still make creating/painting a top priority, that our baby will inspire, that i need to chill out for a minute and catch my breath. that i don't have to give anything 100% up, that i can adjust for what mostly matters, that i can ask for help and it will arrive. that i can lean into uncertainty and vulnerability and let it lead the way into new ways of working and seeing and connecting. and most importantly, that i still have plenty of time to create new systems to keep my biz running while allowing plenty of time and space for baby/family and creativity which are essential to my heart and soul. that i can get those systems in place without it feeling like i'm climbing a giant mountain. that i can start again as i did many years ago when i began my creative biz: one small step at a time - that i really can re-create a biz/creative life that will work with my new mama life. and that's it's wholly possible and not something that i'm being unrealistic about.

i felt so good and energized with that rush of hope that i immediately sprang into action to start getting those systems into place: finding a housekeeper (who i just adore already) for maternity leave (and maybe even longer!), interviewing a creative biz assistant on the phone and immediately knowing in my gut that she's the one, getting my studio and office space together and assembled and ready for quick 1 hour (or less) spurts of painting and biz work here and there, scheming with john about the fun housewarming/blessingway we're planning for sept so that we can gather our community around us, and having one very tender hearted and long conversation with him about being realistic, about making up our own rules/systems of creating our new life, about being creative in the ways we'd like to approach our family life so that we can maximize our time together with baby while still tending to our passions. we want to be intentional about our little family being well rounded and balanced once we start to settle in a bit after those first couple of months.

i love these moments of awareness that these are our last weeks of just the two of us. we are holding one another very close, taking notice of our alone time and moments together, and dreaming dreaming dreaming. i am holding so much hope for him, for me, for our baby, for our new life. i can feel the emergence of a whole new way of seeing and existing starting to make its presence. there is so much birth that occurs with preparing for an actual birth. it's seriously astounding in every way. i keep saying to myself: brave in love, kelly. brave in sadness (ie letting go, surrendering, moments of panic), too.



Wednesday, August 25, 2010

the big home tour revealed

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front porch - couldn't resist buying the child's wicker chair at a recent vintage sale. i know it's a bit early, but still, baby boy will have a place to sit in a year or so!

screen door!
found the original screen door and spruced it up a bit. also, sneak peek into entry and entry lighting!

bear with me on this post. it's going to be long. my organizational genes have kicked in big time with this pregnancy (did i tell you that i'm all about containers right now and space savers?) that i'm inclined to do a long post showing every room in our home from beginning, to demo, to finished. i'd like to have it all in one place, one blog post. why? because i'm feeling neurotic. and 35 weeks pregnant :)

i hope you enjoy this tour. for me, it was so encouraging to see the progression of all the work that we (and our team) did in just 13 weeks from start to finish on this charming 1911 bungalow. wow! we are still unpacking and i imagine i'll wait to share finished room photos for a bit as we're taking our time setting in and making our spaces lived in and cozy, but i do have lots of crafty home projects to share soon with you guys! for now...one very long home tour!

ENTRY!
let's start with the entry. we've always wanted a home with an entry. nothing too grand but just something cozy where we could hang our coats and keys. in seattle, we had to make a little entry as our house didn't have a single closet downstairs or entry space. remember that? when we looked at this house, my first thought was yes, it has an entry space! no closet, but we'll make one. and that's what we did!

here's what it looked like when we bought the joint:
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that's the front door on the right. and that door on the left led to a bedroom which was sort of odd (that bedroom also had another door through the hallway). hmmm. this entry had no closet, but we made one...here is the entry now:
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the door is original to the house and it's HUGE. love it. for this entryway, we added casing to the doorway that goes from this space into the living room. makes a big difference...
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we then closed up that wall on the left so that it no longer has a door to a bedroom. and then we created a large walk-in closet (the doorway you see here on tha back wall). that closet was formally the closet for the front bedroom but we got creative and made it the entryway closet for coats and shoes and baby equipment and stuff like that. i can already tell that was a wise decision as we are using that closet space several times a day already.


LIVING ROOM!
okay, imagine walking into the living room from the entryway. this is what it looked like when we bought the place and through a bit of demo:
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and here it is finished:
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we used bricks from an old furnace chimney that we demolished for the fireplace and painted them white. then our guys built a fireplace that we love, love. ceilings are high (9 feet) so the fireplace was designed to match the scale of the room. we took out the old yucky textured and frosted windows and replaced them with clear glass which made a huge difference. and then the interior of the fireplace got a nice cleaning job and a coat of black paint. we considered built-in bookshelves on either side of the fireplace but decided against it after reconsidering the space and size of the room (it's sort of a narrow room and we'd lose a good amt of space from built-ins).
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this is a view looking into the living room (from dining room). we love the old big windows that look out onto our front porch! floors were redone without any stain - just natural varnish over old oak floors - love the golden color! all room casings and mouldings were made to match the period of the home (1911) and were designed directly from the original casings that were in other parts of the home. it was super important to us to keep the feel and look of the old, original style.
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the color on the walls is "weston flax" by benjamin moore. and the light fixtures and beautiful blue shades are from schoolhouse electric. we splurged a bit on the lighting. this room is mostly unpacked now and we are absolutely devouring the light that comes in...


DINING ROOM!!!
here's are the photos of what it looked like when we bought the house and a photo or two of demo:
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and here it is after reno:
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this room is in the center of our home and lots a lots of traffic go thru this space to the kitchen, to the living room, to the hallway (which gets you to all three bedrooms) and more. i love that it's bright and cheery.

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all new casings and moldings to match the period of the house. and boy do we love that giant window! none of the windows actually opened when we bought the house as they were all painted shut. it was the first thing we did - get the windows OPEN. the color is "yarmouth blue" from benji moore and floors are sanded and clear varnished oak (original). our neighbor gave us a gorgeous vintage chandelier for this room (that was in his dining room for years) that we just put up. can't wait to show you that photo in a later post.


KITCHEN!!
i did a blog post a week or so ago showing the entire kitchen from start to finish. besides the basement and attic, it was the largest transformation of the whole house. and it's awesome. we are still loving it (and our oven finally arrived!).

BATHROOM #1
downstairs bathroom before and after photos are right here. by the way, the color of the bathroom wall is "covington blue" by benji moore. i highly recommend that color :)

HALLWAY
and because i'm a total dork, i'm showing you the hallway. here it was before:
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and here it is after:
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some new hardware on the built-in and a fresh coat of paint ("carrington beige"-benji moore) on the walls and it's all good. notice how the hallway leads to the vintage wallpaper room...which is next in the tour....

BEDROOM #1!
this is going to be baby's room. it's the room where we unearthed some awesome walls during the demo process that we decided to save. remember those walls we unearthed at the beginning of the project - the ones with all those layers of old wallpaper found beneath layers and layers of paint. i love this room so much, i can barely take it!

here was the room before and during renovation:
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and here it is today:
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crazy, right? as john scraped the walls, he intentionally and randomly scraped down to the original layer of green paint (the house was built in 1911) while leaving layers of wallpaper showing through here and there. the effect is magical, looks like a map, and i'm so glad we took this risk! we decided to keep the chair rail molding and paint below it ("carrington beige" - benji moore paint) so that it looks like the entire "look" was done intentionally. he then lightly sanded the wallpaper down a bit and then sealed the entire thing so it's safe. really love this room and it's coming together nicely as a baby's room!

BEDROOM #2
here is the second bedroom before and during reno:
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so this is that bedroom that had two doors of entry - one of those doors was from the entry way of the house that you see above. we closed up that wall all together. and now you can get into this bedroom from the hallway (seems just fine to me!). we also stole this room's closet to create an entry way closet/mud room in our entry, so we had to get creative and create another closet for this room. while we were at it, we decided to build an entire built-in from ceiling to floor with bookshelves and make this room a guest room/office/library. this was totally john's idea and it was a good one.

here are a couple of photos of that transformation in process:
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no more doorway on the left! and closet is being built! you can see the other door on the right if you look closely. and here's another shot of this room almost done:
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and here it is totally done (!):
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seriously loving how this came together. the closet is huge and the size of this built-in is just stunning and makes the entire room look grand. on the opposite wall is a large window which brings in some nice light. and floors are natural and original fir. because we decided to forgo the built-ins in the living room (due to space), this was the perfect comprimise for books and our globe collection. can't wait to show you finished photos of this room decorated. the piece of furniture you see peeking through on the left is a daybed. color of this room is benji moore's "hancock green" - really serene and lovely.

ATTIC/MASTER SUITE!!
besides the kitchen and basement, this was another huge transformation. we absolutely love it up here. here's how it looked when we bought the place:
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and yep, those are orange painted wood floors! and thin plywood walls which made this space very hot or very cold.

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here it is during renovations to make it a master suite (new walls, slightly raised ceiling, new insulation, wiring, adding a bathroom, skylights, etc):
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and here it is finished (insert scream here!):
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this is what you see when you come up the stairs. i've made this space into a little reading/breast feeding (soon!) nook.
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then you turn around and the photo above is your view. it's like a dream, this space. we can hardly believe it.

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we pained the entire space (ceilings included) benji moore's "palladium blue" which is now officially my favorite color in the entire world.

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the floors were sanded down to their original fir beauty and varnished with clear varnish. they are stunning in their original golden beauty. and i love the random darker planks that show the floors age and history.

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we scored stair balusters from the home rebuilding center in portland and the handrail and newel posts came from home depot, then painted white and handrail varnished with clear varnish.

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we built an open space bathroom up in this space (more photos below) and we had lots and lots of built-ins created for storage, clothes, books, etc.

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more closet spaces built in and we added a couple of skylights which turned out to be a great decision. that's my reading/breast feeding nook you see in the distance :)

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we love this bathroom so much and it's hard to believe we have his and her sinks (never had that before!). oval mirrors are from home depot. sconce shades are from schoolhouse electric while the fixtures are from globe lighting. the shower is awesome with its own little square skylight and it's simple white subway tile and white hex floor tile. it was tricky getting a bath up here but it worked out great thanks to our contractor/architect dude. this was totally his vision and i love it!

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we made a little bathroom built-in and the toilet is behind that door on the left. here's another image up close:

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cute, no? the yellow knobs are from anthropologie and we love them so!

whew! there you have it! the basement is done and although i have before photos and renovation photos of it, i forgot to take photos of it in it's done and finished state before moving boxes down there. right now it's a total mess so i'll share photos of it at a later time. we're really glad we decided to finish the basement as it adds quite a bit of living/square footage to our cozy little home. one half is tv/lounge/family/kid living area and the other half is laundry/studio/inventory/packaging area for my biz. while i have a baby, i'm keeping all biz related spaces inside our home until i figure out when/if i want an office/studio outside of our home.

i hope you guys enjoyed this tour. it's a dream. really. and i'm so thankful for all of it. we are amazed that we unexpectedly and sort of suddenly bought a fixer upper (which wasn't in the plans at all!) and 13 weeks later, we made it through. as i've said before, the experience was exhilarating, tough, chaotic, exciting, stressful, and perfect all at once. we are now all moved in and nesting and decorating and getting ready for baby boy! i can't wait to show you these rooms and spaces all crafted up and decorated which has been so fun, and a huge creative outpouring for me.

xxo,
kelly rae




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